No, your computer is not having a hard time loading my blog, I just felt that an appropriate way to sum up how I feel about German. I mean, I always felt like my speaking, writing, comprehending and grammar were great for a foreign kid but terrible for someone who has been learning in Germany, but I feel like it has recently come to a head. Maybe it's because now I'm in a setting where I'm only hearing real German all the time that I get really overwhelmed because it's not slow and I can't understand all of it...anyway. I can't believe it, but the DSH is less than a week away, and I feel completely unprepared and totally scared. I guess maybe it's because I want it so badly now, but I just have this terrible feeling of 'there's nothing I can do but fail now, because I won't become fluent in 6 days.' but today I did study some Grammar...I cried, because it was so hard, alas, but at least I worked on it. There's this thing where you have to nominalize verbs...meaning turn verbs into nouns (it actually goes both ways). Moral of the story is that this is really difficult because you need to add a word here and there and subtract words and change prepositions usw. (usw=und so weiter=etc. I believe I've used that relatively many times in this blog, so I owe you all an explanation). It's really, really difficult. I feel like now that I've been hanging out with Germans I've learned a LOT of umgangsprache (still not enough to be fluent but getting better) but now I'm lacking on the actual knowing German side of things. I'm scared. But I think it'll be fine because I can always take it again if I fail, after studying and living here longer (yes, I have come up with a plan!)
Currently, although I should be studying, I am listening to a new playlist on Spotify that only has good, current German music on it. I love it, needless to say. I don't know what it is about Germany that I love so much, but I've been trying to come to the bottom of this question lately. I think it has something to do with how wholesome this place is. That seems to jive with my personality really well...wholesome yet openminded. It's a weird thing to describe more because it's a feeling that I get while I'm here. There's an openness about things here that just isn't at home. Also, everything here has history. People have history. Yes, I do have history too. My family has history, but everything gets so lost in moving and people aren't as connected to their families and friends as they are here. I know I'm looking at it through rose colored glasses, and yes, admittedly there are still divorces and families that aren't as close as others, but...it's still different.
God, I get so sad thinking that my life has to exist without Germany. And without learning so much about how other people live. It honestly kills me inside. Every day I find something new to love about it here, even though I'm so used to it. I find things to relike that I've gotten used to. I find things that I'm going to miss. I find so many things that I'm going to really, really miss. I wonder if it's possible to fall in love with a place so much that it's like a person. I feel like I'm in first love all over again with all that power, infinity and intensity that I forgot I could feel. Only toward a place.
What else is new in the land of the Germans? We lost the European Cup on Thursday. I was interviewed by a Bangledeshi TV station, to whom I said that I would cry if we lost. Well, we lost, but I didn't cry (on the outside). For the first time, I didn't go to a public viewing (where all those people gather around a huge screen) but opted for an outdoor in a bar type experience. It was nice, until Italy won. The championship game is happening now, but I'm not watching it because I feel like either way I'll be pissed because it's not Germany. I guess I'm secretly rooting for Italy because I don't want the Spaniards to shove it in my face when I go there in a couple weeks. (I'm going back to Barcelona with Hanna, Matt and Amy). Also, if Italy wins I have a bunch of tests next week that I lose motivation to study for with every passing hour. Nursing school stuff is in full swing...I'm finding out my schedule and whatnot and signed up for CPR training across an ocean.
I haven't really shared much German media here other than pictures, so here's a song that I find particularly amazing that I heard recently. There are plenty of German songs and movies that I've collected over the months, I guess I can start sharing them with you all...
"Tage wie diesen" by Die Toten Hosen (Days like these--I'll always think of Germany when I hear this one)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j09hpp3AxIE
"Wie es geht" by Die Ärzte (How it goes--a rock song...look up the lyrics they're ultra cute)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aY8jplkaSq4
And I'll leave you all with...
A List of Common Slang (Oft benutzte Umgangsprache) that I find particularly endearing
Quatsch! no way/bullshit!
Achso... ohhhh, ah haaaa (usually elongated...achsooooo)
Doch! It is too!!
Pass auf! listen up! listen to me! i demand attention!
Stimmt! true.
Wie geil ist das denn!? How cool is that?! (literally how horny is that then?!)
Komm schon c'mon (said often lovingly)
Halt die Klappe! stfu
Halt's Maul! also stfu
Meine Fresse! shit! fuck!
Mega... super (as in, he was SUPER drunk = er war MEGA betrunken. or that is super cool!=das ist mega cool!)
Krass! sick! both in a good and a bad way
Ich raste aus! I'm freaking out!
Na und...? yeah...and?
Sie hat viel Holz vor der Hütte. She has big boobs. (literally she has a lot of wood in front of the hut)
Bist du behindert/doof? Are you retarded/stupid? (don't think it sounds as hard here as it does in english)
Eigentlich nicht... not really...
Currently, although I should be studying, I am listening to a new playlist on Spotify that only has good, current German music on it. I love it, needless to say. I don't know what it is about Germany that I love so much, but I've been trying to come to the bottom of this question lately. I think it has something to do with how wholesome this place is. That seems to jive with my personality really well...wholesome yet openminded. It's a weird thing to describe more because it's a feeling that I get while I'm here. There's an openness about things here that just isn't at home. Also, everything here has history. People have history. Yes, I do have history too. My family has history, but everything gets so lost in moving and people aren't as connected to their families and friends as they are here. I know I'm looking at it through rose colored glasses, and yes, admittedly there are still divorces and families that aren't as close as others, but...it's still different.
God, I get so sad thinking that my life has to exist without Germany. And without learning so much about how other people live. It honestly kills me inside. Every day I find something new to love about it here, even though I'm so used to it. I find things to relike that I've gotten used to. I find things that I'm going to miss. I find so many things that I'm going to really, really miss. I wonder if it's possible to fall in love with a place so much that it's like a person. I feel like I'm in first love all over again with all that power, infinity and intensity that I forgot I could feel. Only toward a place.
What else is new in the land of the Germans? We lost the European Cup on Thursday. I was interviewed by a Bangledeshi TV station, to whom I said that I would cry if we lost. Well, we lost, but I didn't cry (on the outside). For the first time, I didn't go to a public viewing (where all those people gather around a huge screen) but opted for an outdoor in a bar type experience. It was nice, until Italy won. The championship game is happening now, but I'm not watching it because I feel like either way I'll be pissed because it's not Germany. I guess I'm secretly rooting for Italy because I don't want the Spaniards to shove it in my face when I go there in a couple weeks. (I'm going back to Barcelona with Hanna, Matt and Amy). Also, if Italy wins I have a bunch of tests next week that I lose motivation to study for with every passing hour. Nursing school stuff is in full swing...I'm finding out my schedule and whatnot and signed up for CPR training across an ocean.
I haven't really shared much German media here other than pictures, so here's a song that I find particularly amazing that I heard recently. There are plenty of German songs and movies that I've collected over the months, I guess I can start sharing them with you all...
"Tage wie diesen" by Die Toten Hosen (Days like these--I'll always think of Germany when I hear this one)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j09hpp3AxIE
"Wie es geht" by Die Ärzte (How it goes--a rock song...look up the lyrics they're ultra cute)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aY8jplkaSq4
And I'll leave you all with...
A List of Common Slang (Oft benutzte Umgangsprache) that I find particularly endearing
Quatsch! no way/bullshit!
Achso... ohhhh, ah haaaa (usually elongated...achsooooo)
Doch! It is too!!
Pass auf! listen up! listen to me! i demand attention!
Stimmt! true.
Wie geil ist das denn!? How cool is that?! (literally how horny is that then?!)
Komm schon c'mon (said often lovingly)
Halt die Klappe! stfu
Halt's Maul! also stfu
Meine Fresse! shit! fuck!
Mega... super (as in, he was SUPER drunk = er war MEGA betrunken. or that is super cool!=das ist mega cool!)
Krass! sick! both in a good and a bad way
Ich raste aus! I'm freaking out!
Na und...? yeah...and?
Sie hat viel Holz vor der Hütte. She has big boobs. (literally she has a lot of wood in front of the hut)
Bist du behindert/doof? Are you retarded/stupid? (don't think it sounds as hard here as it does in english)
Eigentlich nicht... not really...
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