the hypothetical countdown

So, I move in on Thursday. I know this has been a long time coming, but I just don't feel like I feel like I should. It's weird. I'm not that excited. I'm more excited for school than for moving or anything, I have this feeling I'm going to be really lonely!! I've started reading one of the books for International Studies called "The Post-American World" and it's quite interesting. I hope I become as insightful as the author. He's so knowledgeable. I bet he's hot.

I worked today at Woodman's after coming home from a short stint in Chicago, which was quite fun. I saw Chaya (back from Israel and Poland) and Mendel and the rest of the Moskovits family. I love them. :) I gave away my guitar after years to Daniel Handelman, who is moving to New York on Sunday. Crazy. It's so weird that all my friends are in college now too. Anyway, Woodman's was crazy busy and I had to check the whole time. I'm hoping tomorrow is slower and I get to do distress. After work I'm hoping to come home and get some packing done for the dorms.

One thing I'm totally hyped up for is the fall! I love fall weather, it's my favorite season. I love the crisp air, until it becomes bitingly cold, and the smell of the leaves in the wind. Oh, fall. When I was a kid I used to jump in all the leaf piles, and I feel like that enthusiasm never really left me, but instead of jumping into the leaves, I'm metaphorically jumping into school, and friends, and pumpkins and harvests and everything the fall usually brings.

A weekend

So I have an unprecedented two days off from working anywhere (wtf, right?!) but it's been surprisingly unrelaxing. It's been just as hectic and painful as actually being at work.

Izzy came in to Madison this weekend, Baruch and I drove to Milwaukee to go get him, which was tiring. It's really nice to see him and I'm so happy he's liking Madison!! Yesterday I just worked from eight to five at Woodman's, which sucked, but afterword we all went down to the the Terrace and had some Strongbow. It was delicious, and there was crazy Latin dancing. It was truly enjoyable! Supposedly there was some weird drama going on with Dhanze and Izzy...they hate each other. Hahaha. Not surprising. Today was highly uneventful, we hung around Baruch's new apartment until about one, then we came home and just vegged. There was some "mackie wac" casserole action and viewing of Curb Your Enthusiasm. I just dropped off the mo bros for some alone time, which I feel like I desperately need. Aarushi and Jason are supposed to come over soon to watch Secret Life, I'm happy to finally be seeing Aarushi, I've been the antithesis of social since I have to work all the time.

So that was a recap on my life. I feel overwhelmed, school is starting soon...I'm beginning to worry about what I want to be. I was so sure that I wanted to be a diplomat. But now I feel like it's not good enough and maybe people are right that science is the only route to success. I feel dumb. I wish I was more mentally stimulated on a regular basis. I've started working out of my German workbook, and ultimately I feel like it's productive.

Enough about my boring life.
I'm happy, although I whine alot. I hate whining. And I do it alot. New goal has definately been set to a lower whine level.

I'm out.

The Final Weeks of Summer

It's incredible how time flies when you're young. I've spent all summer working and anticipating school that I forgot about the little moments that have made up the interim. I feel like the individual moments of my life are getting sucked into a faster, greater chain of events and becoming inconsequential. I really wish I could create a reduce speed button like on TiVO. heh

Things around here have been going fine, I'm looking forward to moving downtown in a few weeks. Jerry and Mel are living in the basement for a couple weeks, until Jerry can move into his new apartment and Mel goes to Spain! Jerry, Shaina and I all want to go to Spain this winter break. I'm hoping such things happen.

Baruch and I have been whatever it is that we are. It's ok. I have doubts sometimes.

Aarushi and I got back from DC last week. I've worked steadily since.

I just got a new bike for UW. It's like four inches bigger than my last bike, so it's nicer. Easier to go up hills with. The whole process was a point of contention for my dad and I, I ended up whining more than was necessary and ended up feeling like a fool at the end. Sometimes I don't understand my emotions, or why I can't keep a lid on it.

Keiona is over right now. She's surfing the internet. And listening to some ghetto music, which I do not like at all. :( I don't know what my Friday night has in store for me. Hopefully it will involve a shower and some good music.

We went to the library today and they were out of the Time Traveler's Wife, The Princess Diaries and Bridget Jones. Sucks. I'm hoping to get one book in by the time school starts. I read the Magic Tree House Penguin book yesterday at the Grimmer household while they played Sims. It sucked...those things used to be so entertaining!! I'm hoping to build up enough patience to read Pride and Prejudice at some point....

enough for now. time to take the child home.