tomorrow is back off to barcelona. but before i leave i thought i'd leave y'all a nice late night blog post.
i spent the majority of today just lounging around in my room...more like moping but whatever. watched some tv and took a nap. a few of us, more like 12 but i'm taking liberties, planned on going to dinner, so we had a nice group dinner at a strange german chinese buffet (one trip! what the hell! and it wasn't even that good). we wandered around downtown Bonn for a bit afterwards and we ended up at café blau where i ordered a hot chocolate (served in a bowl). it was such a crappy day outside i figured i deserved it. seriously it's cold and rainy and just downright miserable...which means cuddling weather! i would've preferred to just stay in bed this morning, but making the best of the situation i went over to hanna's after dinner just to cuddle and watch a movie (kuschelstimmung=mood to cuddle). we talked about the sadness of this whole 'having to say goodbye to people' situation. every day someone new from our program leaves for this adventure and that or back home and after a while it wears you down. goodbyes are sad, especially long term cross continental goodbyes for friends that there is a decently large chance that you'll never see again. suffice to say our cuddling session was laced with depressing and sad thoughts; the silver lining being that we had made such good friends that it hurt to say goodbye to them. does that make sense? i'm dreading the airport day. i'm dreading it with every fiber of my being, honestly. sometimes when i think of it i shed true, real tears. ganz im ernst kann ich mich nicht vorstellen. manchmal lässt sich die überlegung durch meinen Kopf gehen...und ich hab so viel angst vor dem letzten gesichtausdruck von marc, weil wahrscheinlich ich es nie vergessen könnte. kann ich mich nicht vorstellen. kaum nicht.
i think i've really grown from this whole study abroad experience. i am more confident, happy, i can tell i've learned from past mistakes...i feel more grown into my own life. i guess it's crazy how much i can be influenced by my surroundings, and how much i realize i desperately needed a change from madison.
to add to the depressing mood here in bonn, i have terrible allergies (allergien=allergies). i'm not sure why, but i'm constantly sneezing, sniffly and have weird asthma attacks. i've been carrying around my inhaler recently because i never know when the evil asthma attacks will strike.
und...for all those keeping tabs on what i write here, I passed my DSH with flying colors and got a recommendation offer from the professor. hell. yes. HELL YES!
i spent the majority of today just lounging around in my room...more like moping but whatever. watched some tv and took a nap. a few of us, more like 12 but i'm taking liberties, planned on going to dinner, so we had a nice group dinner at a strange german chinese buffet (one trip! what the hell! and it wasn't even that good). we wandered around downtown Bonn for a bit afterwards and we ended up at café blau where i ordered a hot chocolate (served in a bowl). it was such a crappy day outside i figured i deserved it. seriously it's cold and rainy and just downright miserable...which means cuddling weather! i would've preferred to just stay in bed this morning, but making the best of the situation i went over to hanna's after dinner just to cuddle and watch a movie (kuschelstimmung=mood to cuddle). we talked about the sadness of this whole 'having to say goodbye to people' situation. every day someone new from our program leaves for this adventure and that or back home and after a while it wears you down. goodbyes are sad, especially long term cross continental goodbyes for friends that there is a decently large chance that you'll never see again. suffice to say our cuddling session was laced with depressing and sad thoughts; the silver lining being that we had made such good friends that it hurt to say goodbye to them. does that make sense? i'm dreading the airport day. i'm dreading it with every fiber of my being, honestly. sometimes when i think of it i shed true, real tears. ganz im ernst kann ich mich nicht vorstellen. manchmal lässt sich die überlegung durch meinen Kopf gehen...und ich hab so viel angst vor dem letzten gesichtausdruck von marc, weil wahrscheinlich ich es nie vergessen könnte. kann ich mich nicht vorstellen. kaum nicht.
i think i've really grown from this whole study abroad experience. i am more confident, happy, i can tell i've learned from past mistakes...i feel more grown into my own life. i guess it's crazy how much i can be influenced by my surroundings, and how much i realize i desperately needed a change from madison.
to add to the depressing mood here in bonn, i have terrible allergies (allergien=allergies). i'm not sure why, but i'm constantly sneezing, sniffly and have weird asthma attacks. i've been carrying around my inhaler recently because i never know when the evil asthma attacks will strike.
und...for all those keeping tabs on what i write here, I passed my DSH with flying colors and got a recommendation offer from the professor. hell. yes. HELL YES!
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