shoo flu, don't bother me

This has been the worst. I have missed two days of class because I am too ill to get out of bed, which just makes me feel fat and lazy, but honestly, I'm honestly just too sick. I've never had an IV before though, so that was interesting. It was weird to feel hydrated-er but not actually be drinking any water, and also it hurts WAY less than getting a shot. Also the first time for me to have blood drawn (which randomly hurt way less than actually donating blood...is that because when you donate blood they use an artery or is that just because whoever pricked me when I donated blood sucked?) Moving on, I'd like to introduce you all to Geraldo, the giant now occupying my thorax that randomly decides to wail in embarrassing situations. I should just stay away from food for a few days.
Otherwise, life has been stressful in the worst ways. Applying for schools is one of those things that shouldn't be stressful but is when you parfait it on top of all the other yogurt-y responsibilities you're given. I'm always second guessing and reorganizing and questioning my priorities, which is something I regularly try to figure out but then the cycle starts all over again and deeper into my morass I fade. I feel like it's one of those situations where I'm going to end up going to UW no matter how many other schools I apply to so I might as well just face the music and stop applying to all the other schools because it doesn't matter anyway.
Speaking of facing the music, I missed the Michael Jackson lecture for my black music class today. shitty. (no pun intended. well, kind of a pun intended). I've been listening to Ra Ra Riot which I enjoy a lot and have discovered Young, Wild and Free by Snoop Dogg and some other random rappers which I enjoy way more than I should. Run DMC is also fairly infectious (like my virus!) as is Beyonce, as always. I've been heavy on the hip-hop lately, a result of this class perhaps? More likely it's escapism, it's nice to forget about those things I think about too much for four minutes of my day.
I've been feeling lonely, too. I've had a bunch of situations where I really urgently wanted to call and talk to someone but felt that no one was really there to listen. I miss that, I do. I just wish I had someone I could talk shit out to without feeling like an idiot.