2011- Get CNA job at UW hospital, Israel, summer school, fall semester in Madison.
2012- Germany, move to NY (Becca? In NEW YORK?), get job.
2012-2014-Nursing school in NY.
Been thinking a lot about that. It just feels like everything now has changed so drastically, and I miss a lot of what has been. Missing the past is a recurring curse in my and so many other people's lives. I think I get it from my mom.
It's funny how things can change so drastically within a week or two. Or a year. I think it's not as crazy to mention that things change so drastically over a decade, but hey, I'll put it out there anyway. As crazy as the constant changes and ups and downs may seem, however, it is also equally important to note that so many things stay constant. So many changes are just so frequent they become constant (if that makes any sense). I guess that's wholly vague but I guess I'll just leave it at that to at least pretend to conceal the fact that the pervading thought pattern for me now involves the opposite sex. Pathetic, I know, but somehow unavoidable. It's like my actual biological clock is screaming, "get on with it!" Sounds asinine considering my youthful age, but had I been born just a few decades earlier I'd probably already have a couple kids.
Sasha came up with this wonderful hypothesis about people on the east coast versus midwesterners. SO: Midwesterners are all outwardly nice, polite and welcoming, we have manners and can be quite talkative and outgoing. But when you get down to it, we all gossip and hate each other, find feuds and dwell on pettiness. East coasties are huge assholes on the outside, terse and businesslike, but they're actually really nice people who are caring and loving to their families and friends. It makes total sense to me.
I believe in nursing I've found my calling. Taking care of people is something that I feel like I am cut out for, and I love doing it. I'm a little sad that clinicals for my CNA class are over, I can't take care of anyone. I feel dumb for coming to this realization so late in my life because seriously, it's such an obvious choice for my career. Everyone who knows me knows it too. I've been watching Scrubs heavily, and it's interesting to watch how Elliott has to grow into taking care of people: she's not too intuitive and she often has issues connecting with her patients. I feel like there are so many people who want to go to med school who are like that. They really care about the patients and want to help them, but it's just not second nature for them. That's not to say they won't make great doctors because their heart is most certainly in the right place. It's just an interesting dichotomy to observe in people.
Sleep schedule is whacked. It's awful, falling asleep before two is a blessing. I wish I had some time off. Today at the lab Douglas was talking about his trip to Miami/Keys and I just felt like I needed some time in the tropics. It's been like...3 months-ish? Four months?! It sounds spoiled but Florida seriously sounds delightful right now. I wish I could just have a whole ONE day to do nothing. JUST ONE DAY OFF would be WONDERFUL.
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