walking through molasses

that's what my days feel like. I'm overwhelmed and want to accept defeat. This shit is hard. I mean, I'm doing mediocre in school, but this econ grade felt like a final blow. Like, a "what the hell are you doing" blow. I need to expand my horizons and find something I'm good at, because International Studies is not it. Watch this get really depressing when I start taking other classes and find out I kind of sort of am semi-qualified in everything but good at nothing.
And this is how I feel.
But I'm good at German, which was canceled today due to my professor being ill. Thank god, except for the fact that I woke up extra early to get to a class that just didn't exist.
And now to whine:
I have no interest in economics, I hate this class, I don't really even care how poorly I did on that test or the fact that there is no way to recover my grade at this point. I have no intention of studying harder for the second one or the final because honestly at this point it just makes me miserable. To hell with it. I'll never get econ, it's boring, it's annoying, and even my professor, the most enthusiastic person about economics I know, doesn't seem very excited about it anyway. Also, environmental studies isn't really tickling my fancy either, or at least this environmental conservation class isn't. I feel like it's redundant, and I'm definitely taking big ideas away from the lectures, but the little nit picky exams can go take a hike. (Hahah, I don't know about you, but I thoroughly enjoyed my nature pun.)

Yesterday I went out with Sarah to dinner, which was fun. She forgot her buns. (Sorry, love, they're gone :)) Tonight I'm going back home to do my laundry and be away from school, which I think I need to be. I work all weekend at Woodman's, and I'm not so upset about it, as I desperately need the money. I would also like to get my taxes done, ideally. If that happens, I will almost consider this weekend productive.
Also: Bursar's Office is completely useless to help me with my taxes. Fuck.
Now, I'm sitting in Rheta's, waiting to go to WSUM. I should see a counselor about my life. Aarushi and I are shadowing Maureen's movie music show, which I'm pretty psyched about.
Anyway.
I think I'm going to read some and get some ice cream to calm my nerves. It might also help to get some of this reading done...