midnight:
i walked out with my ipod in my hand, frantically searching for a song to fit my mood...and i returned to my old flame, death cab for cutie. oh, how i forgot that feeling.
anyway, as i looked up from my ipod and it's shuffle decision, i saw the most incredible sight yet this year. it was beginning to snow. and it was so beautiful, i really can't do it justice with just words. the sky was lit up with the light pollution that those of us who spend a lot of time downtown have come to love so much; the white specks dancing down to meet my hair. absolutely incredible. the experience itself was enhanced by the instrumental at the beginning of brothers on a hotel bed--it gives me goosebumps and calms me down all at the same time.
in the moment, i didn't think about anything remarkable, but i realized that everyone in the world can experience this...you don't have to educated, smart, funny, witty, hot, cute, friendly, annoying, social, pleasant, cultured, or anything that i've been struggling to be or not to be. you just have to pay attention. and i realized that i haven't been paying attention to anything except what goes on in my little snowglobe.
and i was stunned into mental silence.
ah the transcendental moments when you forget yourself.
ReplyDeletei've started trying to appreciate living like you did--there's something so steady about walking around with headphones and smiling at people who don't know you as you walk down the street.
there's something so human and primal about music that i love. you don't have to be a rocket science or even be able to talk to appreciate it.
You shouldn't be walking by yourself at midnight, you could get mugged/raped
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