There are so many emotions and whatnot that I'd like to write here, but since I've been pretty lazy on updating my blog since being home, I'll stick to the basics.
Leaving Germany was pretty horrific. It was heartbreaking. I don't think I've cried that hard in a while. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to my German friends (all four of them! <3 airport.="airport." all="all" at="at" being="being" br="br" for="for" guys="guys" i="i" immensely="immensely" miss="miss" of="of" sad="sad" so="so" the="the" you="you"> Being home was/is weird only in the way that it isn't. And here's the kicker: I feel like my life is now divided. I have friends on two continents, people that I really care for, and this week has been a struggle just juggling the two. For instance today I did something that I feel really guilty about to my dad (kicked him out of my apartment like an ungrateful brat) and I feel pretty bad about that. It's weird juggling friends in timezones as close friends. It's hard. I try to text my German/Finnish friends as often as possible but sometimes the time thing is really, really a challenge. And then I have to worry about being that girl who's always on the phone, always in another world. But that's just the thing, I feel like my heart still is in another world. But I'm still guilty for letting reality slip through my fingers. I'll find a way to balance it soon enough, hopefully.
Nursing school is getting me excited. And I've been applying for jobs so that's hopefully good!
My and Connie's apartment is shaping up nicely. Today we got internet (Thank-you, Dad!!!) and an intense TV set-up (Complete with watchable German television networks!) and finally hung most of our decorations up.
Today was the first day that I skyped extensively in my new apartment, and to my surprise and delight the internet is working wonderfully and quickly.
Alright, it is with great sadness that this travel/study abroad blog ends and my normal life blog resumes...all good things I guess really must come to an end.
Leaving Germany was pretty horrific. It was heartbreaking. I don't think I've cried that hard in a while. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to my German friends (all four of them! <3 airport.="airport." all="all" at="at" being="being" br="br" for="for" guys="guys" i="i" immensely="immensely" miss="miss" of="of" sad="sad" so="so" the="the" you="you"> Being home was/is weird only in the way that it isn't. And here's the kicker: I feel like my life is now divided. I have friends on two continents, people that I really care for, and this week has been a struggle just juggling the two. For instance today I did something that I feel really guilty about to my dad (kicked him out of my apartment like an ungrateful brat) and I feel pretty bad about that. It's weird juggling friends in timezones as close friends. It's hard. I try to text my German/Finnish friends as often as possible but sometimes the time thing is really, really a challenge. And then I have to worry about being that girl who's always on the phone, always in another world. But that's just the thing, I feel like my heart still is in another world. But I'm still guilty for letting reality slip through my fingers. I'll find a way to balance it soon enough, hopefully.
Nursing school is getting me excited. And I've been applying for jobs so that's hopefully good!
My and Connie's apartment is shaping up nicely. Today we got internet (Thank-you, Dad!!!) and an intense TV set-up (Complete with watchable German television networks!) and finally hung most of our decorations up.
Today was the first day that I skyped extensively in my new apartment, and to my surprise and delight the internet is working wonderfully and quickly.
Alright, it is with great sadness that this travel/study abroad blog ends and my normal life blog resumes...all good things I guess really must come to an end.
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