Words of wisdom from Chaucer.
Tomorrow, we have no school. Last semester, I would've killed for that but this semester I feel like I'll just waste away the day with not much to do. On the bright side, I will get to sleep in, I think I'll probably end up going to the lab and also probably to volunteer at St. Mary's anyway. If they'll have me.
What I mean by the title quote is that I feel so empty lately, as if I don't have anything to occupy my positive spirits and time, so I end up feeling pretty down in the dumps. Like, today, as I was making dinner for myself (chili and cornbread) and listening to Death Cab for Cutie (renew my love for them on a regular basis) I just got to feeling really...down. I kept thinking all of these negative thoughts that I shouldn't really have been, which is a dangerous road to go down. I've seen one too many people head down it and get lost.
I could go over and hang out with Sasha, Hannah, Janet and Alex, but it's so cold outside and blizzardy. I would like to hang out with them though, kinda wish (for once and only) that I lived in Adams still. I'll probably just end up working on my CNA stuff (which started tonight) and watching TV/movies. (Exit Through the Gift Shop is streaming on hulu?)
I think I am thin skinned. I really take things personally, and I end up getting hurt a lot. For instance, I feel like a lot of people enjoy my company because I am that person that is there when others aren't. Like, everyone has friends outside of me, but when there's nothing else to do, I'm the one to call because everyone knows I'll be there. That's what I get, I guess, for always being there. I just I would be the first person someone calls more often...
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