realizations of my life from last night/this morning

1. I have a paper due tomorrow, the topic of which the person grading has no idea about. NO IDEA. I could write anything and make it look nice and I'd probably get by. Hopefully...
2. That being said, this paper will still require a lot of work because I need to report data and find more sources, which is a huge pain in the ass.
3. I have some of juxtamedullary nephrons and lots of cortical nephrons. I could go into more depth here but I feel that's sufficient.
   
4. I attract the weirdest people at parties, and not like, in the 'attract' kind of way. I mean in like the anyone talking to me kind of way. Seriously, the weirdest people.
5. Anyone with long hair will never be attractive to me.
6. I procrastinate, but it's manageable.
7. I'm twenty. That's old, in my books. I know I'll look back twenty more years from now and think myself a fool, but I feel fossilized. When does your youth end? Is it when you can no longer buy youth fare cards on the bus? 'Cause I think that's 24. I got a couple years.
8. Going to parties without Rushi is way different than going to parties with her. Mostly because she acts as a catalyst for my socializing with other people.
   
9. Fake spiderwebbing is NOT a good call in public areas.
10. I get my hopes up really easily. I mean, you don't have to say much for me to wish for the best...I think that's the Disney in me. Like, as a relatively shallow example, if my dad suggests that we might be going out to dinner (key word: might) I get all hungry and crave wherever I think is likely we'll go. Or, a slightly more involved example, if someone says that they might stop by my apartment, I'll make every effort to be ready and have time for them, even if they don't even stop by. Or, a really sad example, someone shows me a little kindness, I get really hopeful that we'll be friends. I'm not sure if these things usually work out or not.
11. With number ten being said, I always expect the worst and brace for it. I'm not really sure how those intertwine but they do.
12. I really like She & Him. And I really, really think Phoenix is overrated.
13. There are worse things in the world than bacon, which is weird, because I really hate bacon. And cilantro. Ugh, I cannot even imagine if someone made cilantro/bacon anything. I would NOT eat that.
14. I think that (going back to number 4) these weird people are attracted to me because I too am strange. And I think my strangeness is a function of my family being strange. But I'm not sure to what degree of strange I am next to them, because my parents are pretty weird.
15. German, the language I love, now makes me sad. I have had a few revelations about the evil-ness of what they do. Also, they're obsessed with Hitler. What a shit. Who would put him in a museum? And why would the link to that article be on my syllabus for my class?
    
16. I like my radio show. I accidentally listened to it and I like it. We're funny, and I hope we're funny to people who don't know us, too.
17. Sarah has an amazing place. I love where she lives, it has character. And she's happy.
18. Facebook is creepy. I want to delete it more than ever, but can't because you can't function in a social network (no intention) where a lot of the "action" happens online. It would be like functioning in our society without a cell phone.
19. I fall into habits easily. If I'm messy, I stay that way. If I'm tidy, I stay that way. If I'm in love, I stay that way.
20. I get really proud of my friends and loved ones. Their successes are mine, and I brag about them. Maybe that's weird.